I don't know, I think it's pretty common to want to kill an abusive father. Mine is schizophrenic and bipolar, and a junkie to boot.. I spent many an afternoon coming up with perfect murder situations, especially taking advantage of his junkieness, when I was 12-14. Then I figured it didn't matter, once he moved out, and I could just ask him for a portion of his money each month. Later, I found out the VA was giving him a thousand dollars a month for me until I turned 18, and the most I had ever gotten was 200 a month. I found that out when he called and threatened to kill me for losing him 800 a month in drug money. He owes me about 12,000, according to my calculations throughout my life. I thought about how to kill him again, for a moment. Added with the abuse from previous years, it's easy to want to kill your father, if he's a real dick.